After the SPJ’s AirPlay, I had made a decision to step away from Gamergate for several reasons that I’ve talked about prior:
1. I think that I will no longer be useful.
At the point that AirPlay has gone down, Gamergate will have been around for approximately 1 year, which is basically eternity in internet time. I’ve spent a lot of time interacting with people, learnin’ them some things, providing morale support, and other stuff. It is in my opinion that my usefulness to people will soon be exhausted after that, and there will be no need for me to stick around. There’s a lot of people that don’t know when to walk away from things when their need to be there has expired, but I’m not that type of person. I made a promise at the beginning that I would be here to help with fixing the ethical problems within the industry. Getting Gamergate to the Greek, er, I mean AirPlay and talking with the SPJ? I think that’s the penultimate of what I can do. Unless there’s some untapped potential that I don’t know about, that seems like the height of ethical discussion.
2. I think that it’s time to let other people speak.
I understand the point and purpose of what I do within the context of Gamergate and dealing with ethical concerns, helping people learn and understand some of the more complex systems that created this situation in the first place. However, there are people who are just way smarter than I am that I don’t think are being heard.
3. I didn’t want to become famous for other people’s screw-ups.
There are some people who get so caught up in other people’s prominence (whether duly earned or not) that it creates a harmful situation where nothing gets accomplished. One thing that is a concern of mine is that I’ve gained a limited amount of prominence in this situation, but… I don’t think that I earned it based on the strength and merits of my own skill. Some journalists are so pathetically bad at their jobs that they made me appear exceptional, when the fact is that the stuff that I discuss are the BARE MINIMUMS. When the bare minimums are seen as extraordinary, you know that we’re in a fucked-up situation. For me, I’d rather people were paying attention to the things that I’m saying and doing because they believe that it is worthy of their attention and trust, and not because “everyone else” is paying attention. Doesn’t seem right to me.
4. Other smaller reasons.
The ones listed above are the major ones that were part of my thought process. There are more, minor things (in my opinion), but these are the ones I considered most heavily.
These were my thought processes on this subject. However, there is one thing that I didn’t do that I should have done: Just flat out asked people what their take on it was.
I’ve always encouraged good communication between people, disagreement without being disagreeable assholes, sharing thoughts and ideas. In this case, I certainly didn’t. A great many of the decisions, ideas, and plans that I’ve come up with over the course of Gamergate were obviously affected by the vox populi; the overall feel of the hearts and minds of people is something that shouldn’t be ignored.
I’m talking about this stuff right here in this space, because twitter sucks for longform thoughts (I’m bracing for the jokes). In the time of my life I have found it consistently true that if you ask people what they think, they WILL tell you. So this is me, asking you what you think.
If you want me to stick around, well… that’s a conversation that we’ll have to legitimately have. People have come up to me and made some incredibly good arguments on why I shouldn’t, good enough that they’re making me reconsider my position (even though the above reasons are still true).
Don’t tell me what you THINK I want to hear: Tell me what YOU think. I want to hear your thoughts and how it makes you feel.
Poll here, and comments are open. I’m reading all of them.